Gossamer of Contradictions ~*~

The Dance

2006-08-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

~*~Sit beside me in long moments of shared solitude,knowing both our absolute aloneness and our undeniable beloning.Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words,holding neither against me at the end of the day.And when the sound of all the declarations of our sincerest intentions has died away on the wind,dance with me in the infinite pause before the next great inhale of

Nite Before the Crim Law exam! Wooohoooo...

2006-04-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

After studying so much criminal law – begin to think more and more that lawyers should totally be the most admired ppl around. I mean we find ways and means to set ppl free! LEGAL too! Like none of those break jail bars crap – like literally we spend ALL our time giving guilty people second chance. Showing that morally culpability does in fact play a part in society. Been thinking that there is to be said a lot for the attainment of a goal. Why do people go to war? For the nation? For the glory? For the attainment of a political goal that is set so high – as to esteem the dream of a utopian life? Yes, a glorious government that will assuage the needs of all the plebeians. The

Yes. We can Conquer the World.

2006-04-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

Think the reason we run form activity to activity without pause and plan our schedules with numerous events, is to assuage the grimness of Time. When we’re running we’re going with its flow… However, when we stop and actually breathe… we’re assaulted by its full weight… where Time drags the temporal perimeter around all the

Dream the Dream of Angels

2006-03-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

It's kinda been some time... now that its time to study... i'm taking the time to procrastinate. Just checking through a bunch of old letters to find some documents for a resume - and happen upon some old writings and its kinda weird to look thru' my own eyes from a yr and a half ago ... weird ... this scene's from - Richmond at the acupuncturist's ... yups overlooking the Chinese supermarket.

Midterm Break ... already!

2006-02-23T17:20:00.000+08:00

Really planned to start catching up with work today. It really doesn’t seem like its going to happen. Been in a sorta limbo – the kind where you’re not sure which dimension of your life you should actually step in. And yesterday, went to check out the Botanical Gardens with Indriana for Sunday’s UWC selection camp. 2hours straight of walking in the hot sun, and no drink store in sight.

tralala... lalala...

2006-01-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

You know how they say a picture is worth a thousand words? Music is kinda like that. Except music brings to mind many pictures. Music brings to mind pictures of places. Happy music brings to mind happy places… sometimes these places are memories and sometimes these places are a figment of our imagination… a utopia that music conjures or even the stereotypes of a place we’ve never

Thru the Dark of the Night

2006-01-17T16:41:00.000+08:00

I never understood how far my love for reading would be taxed. I’m never more grateful for this love and every night I thank God that unlike many people who ended up in law school, reading is something I can enjoy. Weee… There are just so many things I want to read… I want! Oscillating between reading for work and reading for pleasure… there really isn’t time to do anything

Fear v. Love

2006-01-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

Someone i havent spokent to for the longest time, just out of the blue sent me this on msn:There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18I think God is talking to me. Heh... It's been a crazy scary week...I will put aside fear and claim LOVE!Amen.

Canada?

2006-01-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

It’s pitiful – haha… Coltrane brings back such nostalgia … Oh be still my heart… Oh traitorous emotions… its already 2nd sem… get over it. When you think you’re over it – something will come around and smack you in the face… see, see? You’re still thinking abt me... Questions of sanity… Can anyone truly miss dorm life? Damn… the convenience of living in a minute space… your whole

Happy New Year

2006-01-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

Claims for 2006: I believe in the mysteries of God, of healing and of miracles and absurd revelations. “I will destroy the wisdom of the wise, And bring to nothing the understanding of the prudent.” Isaiah 29:14 I believe in the hidden wisdom which God has ordained before the ages for our glory. “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The

THANKS...

2005-11-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

hey... i guess... i don't even who actually reads my blog and becuz of late... or especially of late... when desperation escalated to the highest point... i've been pretty uh nerve-wrecking person to be around with. I want to thank everyone... everyone... for patience... for love and for sticking it out and being there. I know its been hard... but you guys are great. Luv y'all...sum it all up...

Take my World Apart...

2005-11-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

Song of renewal... can't even begin to describe how every word, the phrases mean something to me, God really really use it to speak to me this week. Artist: Jars Of Clay Album: Jars Of Clay Song: Worlds Apart I am the only one to blame for this Somehow it all adds up the same Soaring on the wings of selfish pride I flew too high and like Icarus I collide With a world I try so hard to

YO VIVIRE

2005-11-24T13:44:00.000+08:00

(Celia Cruz)Mi voz puede volar, puede atravesarcualquier herida, cualquier tiempocualquier soledad, sin que la pueda controlartoma forma de canción, así es mi voz,que sale de mi corazónY volará, sin yo quererpor los caminos más lejanospor los sueños que soñéserá reflejo del amor de lo que me tocó vivirserá la música de fondo de lo mucho que sentíOye mi son, mi viejo sontiene la clave de cualquier

Let the silence speak to our hearts...

2005-11-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

"No se confunda lo que quiero con la inaccion definitiva: la vida es solo lo que se hace, no quiero nada con la muerte. Si no pudimos ser unanimes moviendo tanto nuestras vidas, tal vez no hacer nada una vez, tal vez un gran silencio pueda interrumpir esta tristeza, este no entendernos jamas y amenazarnos con la muerte, tal vez la tierra nos ensenie cuando todo parece muerto y luego todo estaba

faith n trust...

2005-11-17T08:46:00.000+08:00

and i wake up and look outside and its raining cats and dogs and the skies are dark and dreary... and i'm like... weeee perfect weather for sleeping...and i get up... take a shower... dry my hair and catch a lift from mom to sch... and there ARE die-hard law students in the libarary... I say... absolutely disgusting... I thought I'd have the library to myself.haha... and so the first thought that

Not becuase of who I am, But Because of What You've done

2005-11-14T14:10:00.000+08:00

Who am I lyrics (Casting Crowns)Who am I?That the Lord of all the earth,Would care to know my name,Would care to feel my hurt,Who am I?That the Bright and Morning Star,Would choose to light the way,For my ever wandering heart,Not because of who I am,But because of what You've done,Not because of what I've done,But because of who You are,I am a flower quickly fading,Here today and gone tomorrow,A

Ephesians 3:16-20

2005-11-14T13:56:00.001+08:00

When your world’s been made up of things of the world. The pleasures and joys you can get from the world… where meaning in life stems from those you love and the things we do together… there is no place for God in the charmed life you lead. When you can find and get your way through the intelligence of the mind and the actions of your heart, you don’t need a miracle. And finally when all has

and then... a couple more ... heh

2005-11-13T16:49:00.000+08:00

studying is boring... i'm on a break...haha... a loooooong one... ;)Your Personality IsIdealist (NF)You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.You seek out other empathetic

yea n so... i did a couple... heh

2005-11-13T16:06:00.000+08:00

so..my fren took this "what advance degree should you take" test and he got - you should take a law degree - you'd make a good lawyer... gee... and I get a monkey? You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced.You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.What Advanced Degree Should You Get?How You Live Your

Many people hear what you say... but do they feel who you are?

2005-11-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

And so after you've around enough... you start to seeing facets of people, in other people. Its funny this business ... its like having a role in mind and trying to audition actors... entertaining... and misleading... but definitely entertaining hehe... It's weird this frozen isolation... observing... withdrawing... This country really makes it hard to trust - no one trusts what you say...

Frozen Instance

2005-10-28T01:35:00.000+08:00

- Piazza di San Marco, Venice, Italy You know how it seems as though all forces of nature have come together to create that perfect picture – that one second when all comes together just right… just to show you how graceful the world is. And in every single frozen expression and in every breath of air… therein trembles the signature of a Creator that cries out – “I am here! I’ve created

The Walls are Tumbling down... The Horror! The Horror!

2005-10-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

"The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places" -- from "A Farewell to Arms" by Ernest Hemingwaythe ice is thin enough for walkin'the rope is worn enough to climbthroat is dry enough for talkin'world is crumblin', but i know whyworld is crumblin', but i know whystorm is wild enough for sailingbridge is weak enough to crossthis body frail enough for fightingi'm

J'ai eu vraiment envie de te parler aujourd'hui. Voila, cette parole est pour toi..

2005-10-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

Read it on a friend's site... beautiful lyrics...Une chanson qui sert à rien ( Patrick Bruel ) J'avais envie de te parler...Ce soir, j'ai pas osé bougerJuste quelques mots, juste quelques notesDes mots idiots c'est pas ma fauteRegarde-moi, un peu ce soirDis-moi, dis, qu'est-ce que tu voisEst-ce que ma voix te dit c'qu'elle veutQuand les lumières s'éteignent un peuOn partira, sûrement, un jour...

How Much Wood Would a WoodChuck Chuck if a WoodChuck could Chuck wood..

2005-10-18T10:29:00.000+08:00

The brutality of being confounded by the very image of yourself strikingly drawn in clear relief… words which echoes painfully in your heart… calling recognition… asserting clan-hood and kinship… the understanding of souls… Can one’s soul be torn between to halves? Can recognition resemble many forms and take many shapes? Can friendship emerge between the obvious offsetting of the path of

Yesh... Sick... The Way Out is Through...

2005-10-13T13:30:00.000+08:00

It’s weird being sick. It’s even kinda funny, since I never get sick… and I really don’t understand how my body isn’t responding the way I want it to… like yesterday… Heh… I’m so disorientated and its even hard for me to walk from my room down the stairs… but since I had that 8 hour break in between classes, I decided to study downtown. I just kept getting colder and colder indoors, YH

Musings of Blue Whale...

2005-10-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

"I have spread my dreams under your feet; Tread softly because you tread on my dreams." - William Butler Yeats – I guess that being a people-person has become a habit in itself… That taking charge of situations and coordinating plans is merely secondary nature… And sometimes I wonder… am I being presumptuous? Am I being bossy and rude? When I play the game

To Dream...

2005-10-06T01:29:00.000+08:00

It's amazing ... its amazing how i'm so tired i can't think straight and i seriously have a problem walking in a straight line... with no help from any alcohol and i can't complain abt work cuz i havent done any since the last tutorial ... and I ache in every part of my body... And I feel great.Haha...I forgot how great it is to be understood. To be loved, for who you are... to be listened to by

claustrophob

2005-10-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

Feeling claustrophobic...Feeling cold... sick...Desperate to get out... out of where? responsibilities? studies? steorotypical existence of nonchalance and/or vie for honour, glory and grades?Will I trust in the Lord?So many ppl to miss... oh so so many ...(Picture acknowledgment: A deviation by = RimFrost)

2005-09-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord and Father of mankind,Forgive our foolish ways;Reclothe us in our rightful mind,In purer lives Thy service find,In deeper reverence, praise.Drop Thy still dews of quietness,Till all our strivings cease;Take from our souls the strain and stress,And let our ordered lives confessThe beauty of Thy peace.Breathe through the heats of our desireThy coolness and Thy balm;Let sense be dumb,

Wingless Flight. Wordless Sound.

2005-09-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

O My Father, I have moments of deep unrest -- moments when I know not what to ask by reason of the very excess of my wants.I have in these hours no words for Thee, no conscious prayers for Thee.My cry seems purely worldly; I want only the wings of a dove that I may flee away.Yet all the time Thou has accepted my unrest as a prayer.Thou has interpreted its cry for a dove's wings as a cry for Thee

Amore Sempre

2005-09-17T19:51:00.000+08:00

It’s amazing how time sometimes doesn’t make a difference… and everyday I discover anew how merciful God has been to me and how blessed I am. It’s amazing how people don’t change… and even if they do… there’s a part of them that you always see in them… where time doesn’t erode… no matter how experiences change us. And that is the part in which you hold most dear. The part that you look out

Show You Love...

2005-08-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

speak and say the words that no one else will ever say love love like the world we know is over in a day and you're beautiful and i am weakened by the force of your eyes so shine bright to separate the truth from the lies i'm gonna show you love i'm gonna show you love in every language i'm gonna speak with words that need no form i'm gonna give you what you never had before so tie me to a tree

Pining ... missin u...

2005-08-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

Too worried about convincing everyone else that my decision to stay was for the best… that it made the most sense… defending myself against allegations of incompetence and lack of good judgement… I barely had time to stop and actually think about it myself. F that. I’m so tired of apologising to people for not going back, apologising for things we did not do, apologising for

Shifting Sand

2005-08-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

Feeling like my life seems like its standing still and the world continues to move around me, moving on and moving away... There rises within … a vast aching sense of panic that yearns for stability – in whatever manner it may come… something that would hold you steady until the panic fades away and you are renewed in faith that everything will be alright … It’s an uneasy road that lies ahead…

Donch Wanna Grow Old...

2005-07-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

Wah... its weird... to be in the presence of people who feel that they have passed their prime and are no longer useful to society!Who told them that! Who would dare to...To degrade someone ... to dispose of someone... conviniently aside...Wah!Old Folks Home with the OG today... painting walls were fine... but the long 2 hours of Bingo... only being able to communicate with the one person who

À Bon Chat, Bon Rat et À Bon Vin Point d'Enseigne :)

2005-07-08T00:01:00.000+08:00

Ah... inadvertently when the talk of clubbing arose, this good girl was questioned about a style of dancing… probably unsatisfactory to the questioner … on the opinion she had on the art of (what’s the word… etch…) ah… grinding… haha Ah pourquoi? Pas ce-que mon ami… Truth be told… I believe it is only character that guides your actions… less so then what you’re told to do… or are told you’

Il faut casser le noyau pour avoir l'amande.

2005-07-07T08:51:00.000+08:00

Hah. Crossing the road today and was stopped by a man in uniform. Hmm… more like this traffic police steps off his motorbike in headlong traffic and waves for traffic to stop… including pedestrians. A man and his bike (all dues, the bike was big) but absolutely nonplussed at being in the middle of the road when the lights are green. Then 3 seconds later, a couple of white Mercedes and

Avec Moi...

2005-07-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

It’s amazing what one can say when trying hard not to say anything. It’s incredible how easy it is to place words together in a strand and let it all run together and slide smoothly out of you into the open – glaring stark against the world… weaving a web of complete envelopment and beguilement… of protection… And from what? And how? Ah…the sweetness of mysteries. It puzzles also me. For

Psalm 22

2005-03-21T05:56:00.000+08:00

My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?O my God, I cry in the daytime, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them.They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted

Shalom - the Peace of Order...

2005-03-20T13:44:00.000+08:00

When all you want is to be held… and held so tight that all the parts that seems to dissolving from you and falling apart in your life… would be held together in the encircled embraced of love infinite. That all dark thoughts would turn into conscious streams of blurted speech and trembling gestures of confusion… And yet held in the warm palm enveloping yours and making the shadows recede.

Sounds of Music

2005-02-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

Do you hear it? The sounds of a haunting flute, lilting across a desolate wasteland… snaking its cold hand around your warm heart and gripping it in its vice… bringing you to your knees and squeezing painful tears from your eyes? Oh yes, I hear it… meandering through the cheerful smiles and open faces… not really lies, but merely facets of another life, an imagination perhaps or perhaps a mask