Pining ... missin u...
Too worried about convincing everyone else that my decision to stay was for the best… that it made the most sense… defending myself against allegations of incompetence and lack of good judgement…
I barely had time to stop and actually think about it myself.
F that.
I’m so tired of apologising to people for not going back, apologising for things we did not do, apologising for inconveniencing everyone, apologising for choosing to stay, apologising for being able to change my mind, apologising to people who will never have a chance to go away… and yet I had and gave up my chance just like that…
So tired at seeing everyone’s incredulous gasps and or hostile wariness.
So tired of being different.
So tired of justifying why I’m that way.
And why should I justify anything? Do we all have to be like sheep?
And all because I dreamt a little further and hoped a little harder?
F that.
First… it wasn’t buckets of money. I was on scholarship… the whole way.
And second… it wasn’t brains and loads of talent… it was heart. Loads of heart and a persistence that buggered all the institutions I wrote to… a pleading from a really desperate soul. Yes I wanted to be away that bad.
Che palle.
And now that I’m back…
Why? Why am I back?
I MISS CANADA dammit… Missyoumissyoumissyoumissyou…
Give me mountains any day…
posted by gossamerofcontradictions @ 1:16 AM
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