The brutality of being confounded by the very image of yourself strikingly drawn in clear relief… words which echoes painfully in your heart… calling recognition… asserting clan-hood and kinship… the understanding of souls…

Can one’s soul be torn between to halves? Can recognition resemble many forms and take many shapes? Can friendship emerge between the obvious offsetting of the path of “more-than-that”… who is to say? Can reconciliation between heart and mind – clear the hurdle of God-sanctioned love? And who is to say?

Will there be neon-signs? Or love… like a runaway train… never going back… pull you down the one-way track? Has passion and lust blinded the way of love? Pure sweet love…

Or like chains we are bound by the frustration of brokenness and despair… hating the loneliness yet hiding behind its skirts, that we may not have to dare the frontier of pain and hurt. Hating the needing… yet needing the loving… afraid to commit, skirting the issue behind the mask of cordiality.

Cordiality – merely a façade that hides the pain and frustration… as I make it pass another meeting… another face… another conversation… it’s a bunch of laughs… but does it clear away the emptiness that lurks behind every giggle?

Waiting for The Sign. And sometimes... the path isn’t clear … and the waiting confounds the senses and you are distracted…

Ah and we pray for discernment… and wisdom… and patience and trust.

“Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.”

May I truly seek and search for righteousness Father. That living in the world pressures us into self-reliance. But I will not budge from this place… ‘til your presence goes with me… for I will not lose You… to other things…

And to know.. the meek inherit the world… the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven… and those that mourn shall be comforted… but especially… that those who seek your righteousness… they shall be filled. May we be filled with Your peace… and be wholly filled in perfect fullness and satisfaction… Your will be done.