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lundi, novembre 14, 2005

Ephesians 3:16-20

When your world’s been made up of things of the world. The pleasures and joys you can get from the world… where meaning in life stems from those you love and the things we do together… there is no place for God in the charmed life you lead. When you can find and get your way through the intelligence of the mind and the actions of your heart, you don’t need a miracle.


And finally when all has been taken away and your world seems to crumble, and in an instance everything you once knew or thought you knew, is left in shambles and you are shaken by the weak foundation of an ephemeral identity… you realise… identity is truly ephemeral.


And we will always be seeking it.


Being displaced brings this all in clear relief… and the frustration is something that I couldn’t quite put my finger on… yet it was bothering me… and while outside I’m calm … inside there is this continual struggle, yearning, wanting… and not understanding it… I put it down to loneliness…


But… truly I am not lonely. Nor depressed for that matter… but a little raw and a little lost. And its finally surfaced and smacked me in the face. I’m not seeking to fit in. I’m not seeking to be immersed. I’m not seeking for love or merely acceptance. I’m once again seeking who I am… and this time its who I am in God.


It’s come full circle. Leaving to seek identity. Coming home to lose it all again… for its when all is lost, that you will be found. And being of His workmanship, I have been called to a purpose. And all I need to know … is that its His will … The turbulence and raging need inside to feel whole… is calmed when I acknowledge and see that I am here because this is the “acceptable time” of God. That He has called me here, and I am rooted in His love. I am no longer a wanderer… My intrinsic worth is in God and I am defined because I am His.


posted by gossamerofcontradictions @ 1:56 PM



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